Music my passion?
‘Music My Passion’ was named since its birth in 2000, way before it became a blog. I really did feel like music was my passion back then. I loved the music notes that ran (and still run) in my head. Getting behind a keyboard/piano made me feel alive but comfortable at the same time.
I couldn’t imagine living my life any other way but to eat, drink and breathe music. I spent hours in the midi lab at school outside of class time, jumped at every chance of collaborating with other musicians, sat at home and played the keyboard until 2 in the morning with no score placed in front of me. There was no need for a music score when so many music notes were waiting to leap out from my head! That was almost 10 years ago. At the blink of an eye, I will be turning 24 this year (darn.. the year of Ox comes again). I find myself re-evaluating where music sits in my life. Lately, random “music projects” have started popping up all at once and instead of eating it up like I would’ve years ago, I catch myself thinking it’s “too much”.
too much?
Since when did I start to think music could be too much? Sacrilege!! Music My Passion, man! What is this? Have I stopped being passionate about music? Have I started treating it as a chore and responsibility instead of a gem that brought overwhelming wonder and meaning to my life? Technique and skill got better, but the joy that used to be explosive is now a dimming fire at best.
Until I can start to let music shine again in my life, I don’t deserve to call it my passion. For now, we’ll just call it a fling.
i think u still have passion for it.. u wouldnt talk about it so much if you dont feel anything for it. u make a lot of posts about music
methinks that you can still call it your passion, just evolved. Nobody expects something to stay the same forever. Just because you don’t have room or time to write the music notes scrabbling around in your brain doesn’t mean you don’t still love it.
O_o inane rambling at its best.